Good A$$ Blog Post

Once again, my boy Yeezy has made me love & want to become like Jesus!  I shouldn't be so surprised by now...

I received 2 texts today that made me think of a metaphor bout my love for Kanye (which is only exceeded by his love for Kanye) & God's love for his own glory. 

As with all metaphors, do not dissect past authorial intent.



The first text was a mass text asking for help moving.  It'll probably be a diversion from my very busy day, but I'm big & could do it.  This is the equivalent of the self interest prayers I can often throw up.  They don't really serve the one I'm asking, but I've tried all other options & the one I'm asking is capable of help, so I toss it out there.  

The second text, is from my almost ex-roomie (insert tear here) asking if he can snag Graduation from me.  No brainer!  I stopped what I was doing & burned him a copy of the CD.  Not only did I burn him the CD, but I put all three bonus tracks on there as well, from the separate releases of the CD & double checked that I had the track order correct.  It gives me the greatest delight to share what I love most (music, especially my favorite artist).  This is the equivalent of the Gospel soaked, God centric prayers that I should pray (more often).  This type of prayer seeks to know the essence of God & tap into his biggest interest, namely Himself & His renown. 

When you approach prayer to God the first way, you can often find yourself knockin out the list.  This sucks, that sucks, I want this, I need that, etc.  The second approach is so much more enjoyable.  Its almost rhetorical prayer, in a sense.  God, please glorify yourself today.  God, please make yourself the center of every thought/action/emotion I have today.  God, please make your incarnate life, death, & resurrection & your promise of restoration so real to me today.  Whats God gonna say, ummm, I don't know if I can do that...(imagine God, with a sheepish, contemplative look, shrugging his shoulders, holding his hands out like a scale, weighing the options).  Thats God's thing.  That's His deal.  He is so ecstatic to do those very things & WILL do those very things ultimately & finally to all of his children when He chooses to usher in the restoration.  Where the metaphor breaks down, is when we do throw up those weak sauce first text prayers to God, He's patient with us & is the ultimate good father who loves to give His children good things.  He provides everything we need (and in this country, soooo much more) & actually derives joy in doing so.  So, I can learn from my Father & go help my friends move with a heart filled with love & freedom, not begrudgingly or to fulfill some vain self-righteousness. 

I'm still so awed at the way He is.  I'm so glad that he allows me to get to know Him at all & be a part of His ultimate, glory seeking task of redeeming Himself a people, made up of every people to dwell with Him in His restored, perfect creation.  Freakin sick!

SeaTac & Back

I was in the Pacific Northwest this weekend to be a part of my great & dear friend’s wedding.  It was a great weekend!!! My buddy has a house in Seabeck, WA on the Hood Canal, which is a part of the Puget Sound.  From his back balcony you can see the Hood Canal & the Olympic Mount Range.  Beautiful.  Gorgeous.  Picturesque.  All of these do not begin to describe how majestic the scenery is from the back of his house.  His backyard is literally the Sound!!! God spoke so much to me in this time of enjoying His creation.  

With all the technology we had there.  Wi Fi, iPhone’s, video camera’s, a professional photographer, the beauty could not be reproduced better than what the human eye can just naturally see.  God’s creation is so inexplicably beautiful, that it takes His own creation (the eye) to really see it.  And all this is post Fall creation I’m seeing!!! I can’t even fathom what pre-Fall or post-Restoration creation will unfold.  These thoughts blew my mind all weekend.  

I would fantasize with Strivs what it would be like to live in Jon’s basement.  Never needing to do anything but just be surrounded by the riches of God’s goodness displayed by nature.  Driving down roads that are shaded by huge trees on both sides, though the sun was shining.  It really was the anti-Phoenix.  I was seriously letting my mind get to a place where I could say, my lease is up in October, I could move up here then.  

So I went through my work day.  Opening up my phone periodically to look at my pix from Seattle.  Planning to go on Monster & start the job search.  Thinking of how to convince Nangle to let me live in his basement.  Our missional community was meeting tonight & I couldn’t wait to tell them all about the Pac. NW & the beauty of God’s creation.  All of a sudden, it seemed like 42 revelations all came to me at once while being with my MC.  I can’t move to Seattle.  Seattle would suck because my MC isn’t there.  I was so energized cutting mangoes & overhearing conversations, laughing, seeing 2 visitors slip right in & help with food prep & talk to people & talk about God’s redeeming plan of the world, hearing testimony of a broken girl feel so loved & blessed by our MC.  

(Sidebar, there was this beautiful vignette tonight.  Ryah was talking bout the tragicness of the fall.  She was very articulately, beautifully, describing the massive offense to God that happened at the fall.  Bringing up specific ways we see the fall playing out in our world.  Everybody was tearing up & we were feeling the heaviness of God’s goodness & our sin juxtaposed, then Jenna interrupted, “But Jesus died for sin!”.  I absolutely love that she couldn’t even put herself in that place mentally, where Jesus is not ruling, reigning & triumphant over death for even a few moments.  She had to blurt out the gospel!)

You see, what God has done in JC’s life, death & resurrection is redeem a people.  Not persons that happen to be next to each other but a people.  His bride.  The church.  I can’t live without my people, nay, God has prescribed from the jump, that it is not good for a man to be alone.  His church is in Seattle.  It would not be wrong for me to move there & be a part of His church there.  But thats not my people!  As much as I know anything, I know that God has me in Phoenix, for now, to be a part of my community.  Lord willing, there will be a day that I do move on from this community & it will hurt & suck, but it will not be just my selfish desire to be on a 24/7 vacation, looking at pretty mountains, it’ll be to be a part of a people, showing a people who don’t yet know Jesus, what it’s like to be a part of His people.